Waiting

I wanted to write this post this week for my boy Dubnyk. He is our 6 year foster failure. We love him so much and would do anything to help him. I would do it for any one of my dogs but he has had a hard life to start and has come a long way. A few months ago we went to the vet because he had a bump on the side of his face. We found out he had a cracked tooth and needed to get it removed. While he was in surgery the vet noticed it was not normal. We found out he has bone loss and a mass on the side of his face.

Today we went to the U of M and had them see what the next steps we need to take. They did a biopsy and we get the results tomorrow. We know if our hearts that it is not going to be good news. So we decided that we are going to give him the best life he can have and do what he wants. Plus we want to make sure he sees as much of this world as he can. We don’t know the time frame but we are not going to worry about that and do what we can for him.

He is the sweetest boy you would meet. So please send him positive vibes his way.

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Rest in PeaceRest in Peace

This week was a crazy one, it started off overwhelmed to sad. It is hard for anyone to lose a parent. I know this is because when I lose my mom. There is so much you need to do during this time.

The month of September is a hard time for a lot of people because of 9/11 and a lot of people lost a loved one. My husband grandfather passed away this month, he lived a great life. we will all miss him.

I know this is going to be another short one, because I have a lot going on and figure it out. I know that I feel better after the month is over.

I have some topics that I am working on to post in the upcoming month. So please stay tuned.

just make sure you spend time with the ones that matter because one day they will be gone.

LonelinessLoneliness

I am writing this on the way I feel.  Over the past few weeks I know that I have not wrote anything and it because of loneliness. It happens more often the people think. I know that I get this way and I shut down and shut others out. It hard some days. I due get thru it with a few friends help and the ones I can count on my dogs.  It good to have a support system in place so that when you get this way you know where you can go to. I never get to the place where taking my life is ever an option. I know I have more to do in life and it not my turn.

I just wanted to let people out that know why I have not wrote, being honest with others help more then most people think. When you know that you have issues and you can let others know too that is the first step. I know that I don’t always let people in and help, but I am trying. Plus I think of my mom and wonder what she say to me at times about what going on. She always try and help or even just listen which we all need that.

so please is you get this way remember there is help out there for us and make sure you have support system they do help. I know that over the last year I have done things differently because I know that I have a lot of things I want to do and try. I am not willing to give up that just yet.

Just cause we are all different we all still need to think about others and see what we can do to help. Just think we all have problems but we don’t always show them.

Just think of what Ellen would say Be kind to one another.

LearningLearning

This week has been one that I had to learn how to change and start from the beginning. It has been hard for me because I am not sure where to begin. Eating is a big deal for a lot of different reasons. When you need to learn how to eat and not make yourself sick all over again. I have to eat small amounts and the right stuff.

I had some tests and procedures done and now waiting for the results is hard. It just adds more to what is on my mind and what I need to get done. I also need to take it slow and get better and my energy level back to where I can get things done. I know that I want the results to be good but I am scared.

The more time I have to wait, the longer the stress level goes up and I can’t sleep and it’s the only thing that I am thinking about. I know that things are not always going to come out perfectly but I can hope that they do.

I am taking it one day at a time to learn how to do everything again. Everyday is a challenge to get things done, I get tired of not having the energy level that I used to have. I thank my husband and daughter for doing everything for me and they both say the same thing.

I want this Christmas to be a good one for both of them. Trying to figure out ways to make sure they are doing good and have what they need. Christmas is supposed to be the happiness time of the year, but not for me it is always hard to get thru the month of December.

I have came to the end of this post and I will be trying to catch up and be better again.