This week has been one that I had to learn how to change and start from the beginning. It has been hard for me because I am not sure where to begin. Eating is a big deal for a lot of different reasons. When you need to learn how to eat and not make yourself sick all over again. I have to eat small amounts and the right stuff.

I had some tests and procedures done and now waiting for the results is hard. It just adds more to what is on my mind and what I need to get done. I also need to take it slow and get better and my energy level back to where I can get things done. I know that I want the results to be good but I am scared.

The more time I have to wait, the longer the stress level goes up and I can’t sleep and it’s the only thing that I am thinking about. I know that things are not always going to come out perfectly but I can hope that they do.

I am taking it one day at a time to learn how to do everything again. Everyday is a challenge to get things done, I get tired of not having the energy level that I used to have. I thank my husband and daughter for doing everything for me and they both say the same thing.

I want this Christmas to be a good one for both of them. Trying to figure out ways to make sure they are doing good and have what they need. Christmas is supposed to be the happiness time of the year, but not for me it is always hard to get thru the month of December.

I have came to the end of this post and I will be trying to catch up and be better again.