Holiday Season

The Holidays are among us and we all are busy with shopping , cleaning, wrapping and planning dinner. I know that each year around this time is one of the hardest times I have to go thru. I lost my mom just before Christmas and her birthday and it has been hard ever since. I know people tell me it will get easier and I don’t see how. The one person I could talk to about anything was my mom and now I don’t have that. I know that I have friends and other family members I can talk to but my mom was different. She loved me for me and it didn’t matter what was going on in our life. She always tries and makes Christmas the best for all of us. I still have the present that I got her that year. I know one year it will be easy for me to get thru the holidays but I am not sure when that will be.

It is never easy being down for the holidays, but I try and put on a brave face and get thru it. Sometimes the ones that are supposed to be there for you, don’t listen and make things harder to handle. I know that I will be fine and get thru the holiday season again, but just remember when you see someone don’t judge them you don’t know what they are going thru.

I want to wish everyone that has followed me and went on this year-long journey with me. I will continue next year where I know I will have challenges that will have to deal with. I know that I will get thru them with help from others and myself.

One day it would be nice to get a prayer answered once, but it will happen when you least expect it.

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I know that it has been a while but when you stress of getting this done for your family is on you, sometime you forget what you need to do first. I know that everyone deals with stress differently. I know that I try not to have it get me down but that don’t always work. I have been working on school all summer long and I am coming to the end and I have a couple of things to do. The only thing is that when I am done I have the stress of getting my certification and getting a new job. This put a lot of stress on me because of my family, I want then to be proud of me. I know we should let others make us feel better about ourselves. I know that what I am doing is a lot on my family. I do everything I can for them. I know sometime I don’t think that they see it that way but I know that I do.

Well I will get through this because I know that is what I want to do. I believe in myself and I am going to do the best I can.

Be kind and make each day count.

TimeTime

I know we all wish we had more time each day to get everything done. I know I am one of those people. I try to make a plan to use it all the time I have each day. I have a hard time trying to get everything done. I know others except me to do things all by myself but I know I can’t get it all done. When I don’t get things I feel bad. I feel like I failed others that count on me.

I look around at what I have and I feel blessed. I know that I should do more. I just know that my health is what I should work on. I know that I have been trying to, but it has become hard these past few weeks. I am learning to live different from what I can eat.

Life is hard when others don’t know what I go thru everyday. I keep a lot more to myself than let others know. I have a few great friends that listen to me and don’t judge me when I can’t handle life. I decided to take a step back to others that I have a hard time talking to. I know the ones that are there for me and that is all I need in my life.

I even step back from talking to some family members, because I have a hard time talking to them. I’m trying to figure out what one family wants me for. I know that I need to talk to this family member about what is in my mind.

This is a hard post for me today. Others would read this and wonder if they are the one I am talking about. I want to thank you for listening.

my journey will continue later this week. hope you keep reading.

TruthTruth

Sometime this can be hard to take but other times it just make you made that when you find out the truth you just want to go and say something to that person. I know that I am blessed and glad that I have great friends that have my back, because when I found out the truth they are still there in my life. Sometime you thing that one person can’t change someone else life but it can. It happen to me, but I am better for it and I opened a new chapter in my life and I will a happier person for it. So you can say that the one person I can thank for that, because if it was not for this person I would still be unhappy and stressed each day of the week. My life has gone in a better direction.

So when you find something out, just think of how it effects your life, because one day you can look back and say thank you, they may even made life better. when one door closes, a new and better one will open, you just need to find it.

Be kind to all!