This week has been one that I had to learn how to change and start from the beginning. It has been hard for me because I am not sure where to begin. Eating is a big deal for a lot of different reasons. When you need to learn how to eat and not make yourself sick all over again. I have to eat small amounts and the right stuff.

I had some tests and procedures done and now waiting for the results is hard. It just adds more to what is on my mind and what I need to get done. I also need to take it slow and get better and my energy level back to where I can get things done. I know that I want the results to be good but I am scared.

The more time I have to wait, the longer the stress level goes up and I can’t sleep and it’s the only thing that I am thinking about. I know that things are not always going to come out perfectly but I can hope that they do.

I am taking it one day at a time to learn how to do everything again. Everyday is a challenge to get things done, I get tired of not having the energy level that I used to have. I thank my husband and daughter for doing everything for me and they both say the same thing.

I want this Christmas to be a good one for both of them. Trying to figure out ways to make sure they are doing good and have what they need. Christmas is supposed to be the happiness time of the year, but not for me it is always hard to get thru the month of December.

I have came to the end of this post and I will be trying to catch up and be better again.

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ChangeChange

Season changes, leaves change colors. What do we do to change? We change our clothes for the weather. So it is time to look back at the year and see what we have learned about ourselves and what is going on around us.

Start making plans on what to change the following months or year. I know that I have been thinking about what I want to do. Some things will be hard and slow, but I just have to make my goals small and have little victories.

There has been so much change in my life right now, I feel overwhelmed at times. I have a hard time dealing with it, so instead I stay busy and not think about it for a while. I know that it will catch up to me and I am going to have to face what is going on inside my head.

Sorry this one has taken me a while to write but I wanted to make sure others understand what I am going thru and what I have in front of me to face. I know some will have helpful tips and I am welcome of that. The others that have comments that I need to face what is coming and deal with it because it happens to everyone have no idea what it’s like in someone else’s shoes.

Family and StressFamily and Stress

I know that it has been a while but when you stress of getting this done for your family is on you, sometime you forget what you need to do first. I know that everyone deals with stress differently. I know that I try not to have it get me down but that don’t always work. I have been working on school all summer long and I am coming to the end and I have a couple of things to do. The only thing is that when I am done I have the stress of getting my certification and getting a new job. This put a lot of stress on me because of my family, I want then to be proud of me. I know we should let others make us feel better about ourselves. I know that what I am doing is a lot on my family. I do everything I can for them. I know sometime I don’t think that they see it that way but I know that I do.

Well I will get through this because I know that is what I want to do. I believe in myself and I am going to do the best I can.

Be kind and make each day count.

GriefGrief

This week I wanted to talk about grief. We all go thru it sometime in our lives. I know I have had too much in my. Sometimes it hits you like a ton of bricks and other times you can expect it. People will tell you sorry for your loss, others wont know what to say at all.

There are those times they just don’t know what to do. So the next time you hear someone has lost a loved one, maybe just see what you can do for them. They know that you are sorry but after a while they just don’t want to hear it any more.

I know from experience that is for sure. We are going thru some grief right now. We have not lost our fur baby but we just don’t know when that day is going to come. It has been hard to talk about it and people ask how he is. We take it one day at a time, because we know that day is coming. It will be a hard day, everyone that has lost a pet knows the feeling.

So thank you for listening to me and hope the next couple of weeks goes better.