This week has been one that I had to learn how to change and start from the beginning. It has been hard for me because I am not sure where to begin. Eating is a big deal for a lot of different reasons. When you need to learn how to eat and not make yourself sick all over again. I have to eat small amounts and the right stuff.

I had some tests and procedures done and now waiting for the results is hard. It just adds more to what is on my mind and what I need to get done. I also need to take it slow and get better and my energy level back to where I can get things done. I know that I want the results to be good but I am scared.

The more time I have to wait, the longer the stress level goes up and I can’t sleep and it’s the only thing that I am thinking about. I know that things are not always going to come out perfectly but I can hope that they do.

I am taking it one day at a time to learn how to do everything again. Everyday is a challenge to get things done, I get tired of not having the energy level that I used to have. I thank my husband and daughter for doing everything for me and they both say the same thing.

I want this Christmas to be a good one for both of them. Trying to figure out ways to make sure they are doing good and have what they need. Christmas is supposed to be the happiness time of the year, but not for me it is always hard to get thru the month of December.

I have came to the end of this post and I will be trying to catch up and be better again.

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This year has gone by and so much has changed in my life. I know that I am working on be debt free and saving money. I know they have a few ways you can save and budget. I am doing a lot of different things and I would like to share them with you.

First one is I have a auto amount directly into my savings account.

I also do surveys and play games that get me gift cards that I can use instead of money.

Plus I have been working on decluttering my house and selling things. I know one day I will get there just by taking time.

I also am starting to use those saving books where you put cash in a book and mark it off.

It has been a rough few weeks losing my sweet boy, which makes me want to do more in life. His life was cut short and I am going to do what I can for him. Everyone says you need time, but no amount of time will bring him back. I know that he is watching over us and I want to make him know that he is missed and very loved.

So hopeful by the end of the year I will be closer to my savings goal.

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I know we all wish we had more time each day to get everything done. I know I am one of those people. I try to make a plan to use it all the time I have each day. I have a hard time trying to get everything done. I know others except me to do things all by myself but I know I can’t get it all done. When I don’t get things I feel bad. I feel like I failed others that count on me.

I look around at what I have and I feel blessed. I know that I should do more. I just know that my health is what I should work on. I know that I have been trying to, but it has become hard these past few weeks. I am learning to live different from what I can eat.

Life is hard when others don’t know what I go thru everyday. I keep a lot more to myself than let others know. I have a few great friends that listen to me and don’t judge me when I can’t handle life. I decided to take a step back to others that I have a hard time talking to. I know the ones that are there for me and that is all I need in my life.

I even step back from talking to some family members, because I have a hard time talking to them. I’m trying to figure out what one family wants me for. I know that I need to talk to this family member about what is in my mind.

This is a hard post for me today. Others would read this and wonder if they are the one I am talking about. I want to thank you for listening.

my journey will continue later this week. hope you keep reading.

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Just wanted to talk about something that I see a lot of and wonder why. Every time some don’t like what happen in there life, they post it and wait for people to comment, just remember there also the backlash of what you post. There are people out there that judge you on it. I know that social media is a good and bad place to be at the same time. I know that if I have a bad day I don’t want to advertise it to the world, I want to talk to a close friend. I know that some just want to let everyone else know what crazy things are going on out in the world. I would just let people know that be care what you put out there because it can cause other pain and you don’t even know it.

Think before you write and let the world know.