Rest in Peace
This week was a crazy one, it started off overwhelmed to sad. It is hard for anyone to lose a parent. I know this is because when I lose my mom. There is so much you need to do during this time.
The month of September is a hard time for a lot of people because of 9/11 and a lot of people lost a loved one. My husband grandfather passed away this month, he lived a great life. we will all miss him.
I know this is going to be another short one, because I have a lot going on and figure it out. I know that I feel better after the month is over.
I have some topics that I am working on to post in the upcoming month. So please stay tuned.
just make sure you spend time with the ones that matter because one day they will be gone.
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MEME
I would like to tell you a little about me and why I am doing this blog. I started this blog a few years ago but things just kept me from doing it full time. Now that I got things better I wanted to let others know things I do to help myself. So I started making little goals for myself to help me stay calm. I have Ulcerative Colitis and Primary Sclerosing Cholangitis. I have to deal with both for over 15 years. It has made it hard for me to work outside the house and be around people. So I deal with Anxiety and depression a lot. Each day is different for me. I have those great days that I can do a lot and I am happy. Those bad days are not as fun. I am quiet, uninterested in doing anything that normally makes me happy.
This past week I had a few days like that. I had to try and figure out how to bring myself out of it. I am doing better today but I’m still having a medium day. I have a good support system in place that helps me and just listens to me.
I have an email you can ask me questions or just wish me luck on this journey.
LonelinessLoneliness
I am writing this on the way I feel. Over the past few weeks I know that I have not wrote anything and it because of loneliness. It happens more often the people think. I know that I get this way and I shut down and shut others out. It hard some days. I due get thru it with a few friends help and the ones I can count on my dogs. It good to have a support system in place so that when you get this way you know where you can go to. I never get to the place where taking my life is ever an option. I know I have more to do in life and it not my turn.
I just wanted to let people out that know why I have not wrote, being honest with others help more then most people think. When you know that you have issues and you can let others know too that is the first step. I know that I don’t always let people in and help, but I am trying. Plus I think of my mom and wonder what she say to me at times about what going on. She always try and help or even just listen which we all need that.
so please is you get this way remember there is help out there for us and make sure you have support system they do help. I know that over the last year I have done things differently because I know that I have a lot of things I want to do and try. I am not willing to give up that just yet.
Just cause we are all different we all still need to think about others and see what we can do to help. Just think we all have problems but we don’t always show them.
Just think of what Ellen would say Be kind to one another.
To Do ListTo Do List
This past month I have been trying to get back on track with things. So I started to make lists. I have a cleaning list, meal planning , to do list. This has made it easy for me to remember what I need to do. Sometimes I get side tracked and I am not sure what I should work on next. I even made a budget so I can figure out ways to save money. Everyone would love to be debt free and save money too. It is not always that easy. It has been a work in progress for me. I find ways to sell things I don’t need anymore or if that doesn’t work I donate it to a good cause. The feeling that you get when you help out other ways is the best feeling you could have.
I am still in the working stages of this plan. I just know one day it will all be worth it to me. This year I even tried to start growing my own vegetables but something has always gotten in the way. I know that I still have time. I just take it one day at a time.
Just remember that you can do anything that you want, it just takes time. Thank you again for letting me do this.