Hi everyone, I know it has been a while but I have a few difficult weeks. I had to go bck to work because I finished school and haven’t found a job in that field. During this time I ended up in the hospital because of a dsease I am dealing with. The job I had was only temporary but still since I would not commit to that and we to the hospital for my life, they moved on. Which for me is hard to swallow. I choice my life for a job. Well that is fine, I am working toward getting better and stronger.

I know that I don’t have all the answers right now and I don’t know what my future holds. I know that I am going to hold my head up high and take one day at a time. enjoy my life, do the things that I love and don’t worry about the things I can’t change.  My life means a lot to some people. I will always choice life over a job.

Nothing is important that life. So please keep me in your prays and on’t ever take anything for granted. we only have oene shot at all this.

I will post after this week is over. be kind to all

pray for the ones that dealing with the unknown.

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LimitsLimits

This week I like to talk about our limits and when they get pushed too far. I know that I have had this happen to me these past couple of weeks. I was not sure how to handle it. So I had to look for something that would help me calm down.

Remember what makes you feel at peace and happiness. I know that I had to think and push myself into what I need to do. It is not always easy but it works in the end. Baking and reading help me. When I am baking I listen to pod cast and that also helps direct my mind to something else and calms the rest of me.

At night I go to bed early to read and that directs me to what I am reading and calms me to be able to sleep which I need. I know what I need and I just have to figure out how to make it happen for me.

I know this post has taken me a little longer. It’s hard to type one handed that is for sure. When you have a lot of things to do, but when you have to do it slow and one handed. I just know that my limits have been tested , but this is a time when I get to know myself. I know that changes are happening and I can’t stop it.

Thank you for following my journey and getting to know me.

Think before speakThink before speak

This week is about things people say to others that might hurt. I know that when it happens to me it stays with me for a while. It hurts for people that are supposed to love you and be there when you need them. When it happens I go through a cycle of why what I do even matters to anyone. When someone likes me with the issues I have it hard. Life doesn’t seem to matter to me anymore. I try and try but I think why no one cares if I am here or gone.

I know that I will get past it sometime but each time it takes a little longer. Many different ideas go through my head, but I do not act on any. I know that happens to others and are afraid to say something or even talk about it. This is why I want others to know you are never alone.

One day there are things that get to you, bother you, you will miss it. The one thing that seems to get to me the most is, that when it comes from someone that is supposed to love you. I know that everyone changes as they go through life but the love you have should never be something that hurts you the most.

Thank you again for letting me do this.

WaitingWaiting

I wanted to write this post this week for my boy Dubnyk. He is our 6 year foster failure. We love him so much and would do anything to help him. I would do it for any one of my dogs but he has had a hard life to start and has come a long way. A few months ago we went to the vet because he had a bump on the side of his face. We found out he had a cracked tooth and needed to get it removed. While he was in surgery the vet noticed it was not normal. We found out he has bone loss and a mass on the side of his face.

Today we went to the U of M and had them see what the next steps we need to take. They did a biopsy and we get the results tomorrow. We know if our hearts that it is not going to be good news. So we decided that we are going to give him the best life he can have and do what he wants. Plus we want to make sure he sees as much of this world as he can. We don’t know the time frame but we are not going to worry about that and do what we can for him.

He is the sweetest boy you would meet. So please send him positive vibes his way.